Sunday, November 23, 2014

Why wasn't I warned?

For my ladies that are thirty years old and over please tell me....

"Why wasn't I warned?"

Is the normal to be all in your feelings and don't know why?

Do your sex drive leaves you or continues to intensify?

How come your emotions change by the moment?

Did you light bulb moment happen yet?

Why you start to look at your friends, family, and relationships differently?

You feel unsatisfied and cannot figure out why?

Think that your too fat or too skinny?

Unsatisfied with your current job?


I know for me some of these things got" me" written all over it but for some its not this way.

The changes women go through once they hit their thirties is unreal !!!!

 I wish it was a handbook to this mess!!!

Real Talk!!!

I just hope that once you go through this that you didn't stress people out with all the changes..

Good luck ladies and don't you always wanna say...

Why wasn't I warned about all this???


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Monday, November 10, 2014

Election....the day after

I have been voting now for a long time and i must say...

I am sick and tired of some of the mess that politicians pull before voting begins.

To be honest, i am not surprised that people are not super pissed by the way the government is treating the voters and even more the president.

I have never seen so much disrespect for our president in my entire life.

I understand if your views are different but allow this man to do his job. He came into mess

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Understanding the new dating world

I used to wonder why women would say they want to stay single...

With this new way of dating...Shit!!!..... ill be single for life

Let me explain....

I have encountered many men that say the following junk..

" I having fun but we can still have sex"
" I'm doing me right now....we can just kick it"
"I'm not looking for a relationship but...
" I got too much going on for a relationship"

All I got to ask is....what the fuck is this about?

There are some good men and women in the world!
 Because you are being guarded and got some slick pimp game going on you are letting a potential long term mates go away.

People are not taking under consideration that dating is so different now and you have to be really careful who you let into your circle.Some will keep you around to benefit their career,wallet, a warm place to lay or to get money out of you. Few will make it past the first level if you stay aware and safe.

I got some small tips for figuring out if that person is truly there for you...
Disclaimer: These are my views only....take it how you like!

1. Tell that person you are practicing celibacy and see how different the conversation go
2. Be extremely honest about your intentions ( some will be afraid to believe you due to your honesty)
3. Tell a person that you are currently unemployed. ( these days some are seeking someone to take care of them! Don't let that be you!!
4. Do not tell anyone your on social media! ( people have a tendency to look people up without truly having a face to face conversation with them.
5. If your curious...do a background check! ( Only after three months or if they have been around your kids.
6.Do not have overnight dates!!!  Its cuffing season!!! Do not become that person they lean on cause its about to get cold
7. Lastly...ask the person when was the last time they have been tested for all diseases. ( People gets real up and arms about this question but they are willing to tell you and provide proof it shows they care about their life as well..


Dating in 2014 is not the easiest thing but I'm sure with a little more precaution you will be just fine!

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Finding your voice

In these times with so much temptation and deceit its hard to stay on track and do right.

You will have many people telling you to go left when you want to do right. That's why you have to find your voice..

There was a man that was in a relationship with a woman for five years. He has a small criminal record and was trying to piece his life back together. She would always complain about how broke they were but when payday came around she has the latest things and everything was laid on her. But the bills were always overdue!

He approached his lady about it and she degraded him and made him feel low and less of a man. One day as they sat at the dinner table she brought up the conversation of him going back into the drug game.

She stated that he would only do it for a short time and it could put them back into the lifestyle she was accustomed to when they first met. But little did she know that after he got out of jail three years ago he went to church and asked god to restore his life and he got saved.

This was a touchy issue for him cause he really wanted to stay focused on keeping the promise that he made with god three years ago.

For six months, she bugged him about the issue and even went so far as to set him up with the old dealer he used to run with.

On the outside he was fine but in his heart he was struggling...really badly!!

Later that night as he was sleeping he had a premonition about what would happen if he made the drop the following night. So instead of him doing the drop he went to bible study. On the way home later on he heard on the radio that five people was killed in a drug deal gone bad. Come to discover it was his former drug friends and his girlfriend..

So in conclusion when you find your own voice and be strong to what you believe god will take care of you..


Saturday, September 13, 2014

I decided to obey....

Tonight was one of the most unpredictable nights of my life

So many things happened that if i told you...you would not believe me

But one thing I've learned is everyone that says they trust god....really don't!

I decided to obey god tonight and it seems like i cant get any respect from my family at all.

Its like the good i did the devil was right there to insert turmoil.

I refuse to let him win and regardless of how everyone feels about the situation...

I obeyed god tonight and i feel wonderful about it.

I trusted my father...

The one that gave me like...the one that died on the cross for me...the one that is there when man has failed me..

THE ONE TRUE LIVING GOD.....

AMEN!!!


My prayer....i thank god for allowing me to bless someone i didn't know tonight. I thank you for giving me the provisions to do so. What others made for bad...you made for good and for that i give you the glory and praise forever...

Amen!!!

Monday, September 1, 2014

Happy September

Now its past the middle of the year and the seasons are about to change how are you feeling about where you are in your life?

I am in a better place than ever...

Take the remainder of the year to really focus on what you want and go for it.

Updates coming soon but in the meantime check me out..

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One love.....

Friday, August 15, 2014

Our People.....

I apologize in advance for the cursing in advance but....

What the fuck is going on in the world today

Am i the only one wondering this in my mind? I'm just saying

No one is taking accountability for anything....what the hell???

Now i know sometimes we have to protest in silence but like the movie " One night with the king"

" There is a time to be silent and a time to speak" There isn't a better time to speak such as this

So, what are we going to do? Not only as human beings but as blogger,web celebrities, models, actors, or any high position where you have followers. I'm just saying ....

People please stop tearing up your own communities and fight the legal and professional way!!!

I will not dive into this too much cause i am not fully aware but its becoming team too much to see our not using their hear properly and messing  up everything....

Our people will perish from the lack of knowledge...

Don't be those people....educate yourself...

PLEASE.....

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Emotional Rollercoaster........

Relationships can be a bitch sometimes...

Do you know what you really want or is the person your dating being a jackass?

I can relate....

In the times we are living in relationships are not the same anymore...

Everyone just want to fuck, live rent free, get something for nothing and when they are done they want to run....

Personally...that is some BULLSHIT!!!!

As much as i like to have a good time I had to stop kicking it for a while and focus on me and what is next in my life. I urge you...new generation ladies and men to be careful who you give your "gift" to

Its okay not to have sex til marriage....

Its okay to say no while standing at the altar if it don't feel right...

Its okay to be saved and concentrate your body to find the right one.

Interesting fact: Did you know that everyone you have sex with you carry an emotional attachment to that person for life. Now think about all the folks you gave it to...Do you feel clean?

I don't....I feel dirty ass hell and I wish i could take it back from everyone i gave it to.

I say this to bring awareness to how your emotions might not even be your own....
Take your time....

One love...

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Just stand....Can you??

We as human beings sometimes don't really understand when the old saints tell us to just stand when things are not going our way and I'm learning... its a true statement.

Even I'm guilty of not being as strong as i need to be and I'm working on it...Ill prove it to you!

Over the past three months I personally have been dealing with some life changing things in my life that has truly tested my faith beyond what I have ever went through.

A couple of days ago I allowed something to come out of my mouth that I will regret for the remainder of my life and that is....I wanted to commit suicide...

I did not mean it at all but when your not being strong to god's word and praying without ceasing your mind become weak and vulnerable...It happened to me!!!

Can you openly admit that you have been struggled with staying strong and standing on his word.

I don't claim to be a " bible thumping", every Sunday church going, and every volunteering event saint but i do know god died on the cross for me and as long as I serve him....repentance is daily!

I write this because I am still struggling and I want to continue to be open and transparent with my readers and future readers about my journey.
I know that over the past four years I have done a lot of things that are not pleasing to my god and now I am reaping what I sow and I can admit that now.

If you can learn anything from me....Please do right by people and try to make things right with folks who you have or might have done wrong to. Never know when you might need them!

Continue to keep me in your prayers and I will do the same...

Happy Sunday!

Monday, July 14, 2014

All about change...

In life, we always talk about what we will not do but sometimes its not that easy.

For years now its a lot of things I said I would not do....and I wind up doing them....

Hmmmm...

So it had me thinking...

What are some things you refuse to do but conquered your fear anyway?

Did it work out for u? How did it impact your life?

Take this time to reflect on change,figured out what are your limitations, and are you being honest in you ways?

Take it from me I have grown so much and had I not conquered my fears i would be jacked up....

I'm just saying...Be blessed!!!

Friday, June 27, 2014

Dont be afraid....

Where has this year gone to? Am i the only one thinking this...surely not!

When this year started I wanted to make sure i faced my fears head on and make sure I held myself accountable and i think I've done a great job so far.

I started working out and have lose 42 pounds since late January
I began clearing up debt and living under my financial means
I started learning to forgive people and not hold grudges.
I have learned to control my temper with certain people
I learned to listen more to my child

Last but not least....I started to rebuild my relationship with my lord and savior!!! (Major work in progress)

Don't be afraid to want more...do more...step out your comfort zone, laugh more, rest more, or whatever it is that drives you!

Personally, I'm blessed that I decided to do so cause I will be such a better person and mother for it..

Next goal...Back on the runway or in magazines...

Keep in touch and watch for me!

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Major lifestyle change brewing..

In life you have to make decisions that might not be comfortable for you but it is what's best for you and that's what I'm doing.
For the past four years I have been a single woman because five years ago I ran away from a marriage that wasn't working before I gave it time to grow.

One incident happened that sent me running for the door and I have to be honest. ..it was the worse mistake I've ever made.
I know what people read this it might piss some folks off but I got to be honest with myself and my viewers that read and listen to my webisodes.

I gave up on him cause he hit me!

One thing im learning is if you are a true child of god you are suppose to forgive people regardless of what they do and because of this fact I chose to forgive him so i can grow and move on.

I urge you to ask yourself....

If someone hurt you so bad that you thought you would never recover and god personally asked you to forgive that person to get into heaven? Knowing he knows your true heart...

Would you!

Sunday, June 8, 2014

Updates...

Hello everyone...

Thank you for following me on this new journey that i am taking and i truly thank god for what he is doing in my life...

Website will be updates soon..

Also i have started back booking modeling and event planning work so if your interested in working with me please email me.

The weight loss confessions will be back soon as i get my video camera fixed but i am 38 pounds down since February and i am truly blessed...

Thanks to Mercedes and Deloris for donating to my daughter jsa summer school program fundraiser but due to lack of funds I had to unfortunately pull her name and her seat for the 2014 program. God will bless her with another opportunity soon enough. God bless you both

Lastly, if anyone in Memphis hasn't noticed that i have not been on the club scene lately. Well i felt like it was time to let it go and find a better way. No doubt i will every blue moon come out but as of now i will be staying at the house of rooftop during the summer months.

God bless you all...

Tanesha

New generation of women

Let me first start by saying that I do not hold a bit of shade for any woman that has the body for some of these outfits but over the past four years I have noticed a new trend in some women's clothing and how some don't respect their bodies it pisses me off...

Why do women feel as if its appropriate to walk out of the house advertising everything god said was precious and pure? I am just curious cause I truly don't get it!

Its only six months into the year and the dresses and shorts are off the chain short.

Last time i checked its okay to dress sexy not slutty!

Wearing a full body suit that looks like a swimsuit with your thighs rubbing together ain't it!
Having a full stomach with back fat but your dress is so short everyone knows your on your cycle is not cute!

I don't name people or post pictures out of respect for others but i will say this..

Where is the self respect? Where is the virtue? Where is the integrity? Its gone i feel

Until we stand up and show our young women and girls that's its okay to keep some things private we will never grow as a people.

As a woman going into a new stage in my life i had to check myself about some of the things i wear and how I was perceived when I went out. It take a strong woman to admit that things need changing.

Sometimes your clothing and your actions make a bold statement that is sealed in peoples hearts and minds forever...

What do you want your impression to be? Never know the person you see might be your new boss!
Think on that!

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Changes...

This will be the most raw blog i post to date...

I want to take the time to thank anyone how had a hand in the development of me becoming a model and a blogger. THANK U!!!

Second i am changing....I don't understand whats happening to me but i like it!

Reading and watching my videos and blog posts i am nothing like i used to be and that's all thanks to god.

I watched this movie called ''The Encounter" and it was a very thought provoking movie and life changing.

Many people look at me and have their own interpretation of what i am but i never gave a care until i saw this movie. It forced me to evaluate myself on a spiritual level and honestly i did not like what i saw.

So I'm taking this blog to say that sometimes we need to change so we can understand that what we think is good maybe a sinful or inappropriate thing to god.

Take a day or moment to really evaluate yourself from the inside/out...you might be shocked with the results!

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Teenage Years....

I don't understand why teenagers want to act like they run shit....


One thing I sure know is that I refuse to be my child's puppet...


As a parent you have to take control over your situation and I wont be that parent...


Pray for me or I will do the same....

Friday, March 14, 2014

Life choices....

Life can sometimes give you a reason to snap and curse everyone out but what would that truly prove?
As we embark on new things and experiences...remember everyone that smile in your face doesn't mean they love and care for you.
Personally, I have have been dealing with a big lifestyle decision that I've needed to make for the past eight months and no one knows but me. Its very hard holding something in when you needs to talk it out and quit stressing.


Life choices are not easy but in many cases its meant for us as human beings to go through it so we can inspire someone else in the long run. Being a little older I can truly say that I offer some life experiences and I wish my struggle not on my worse enemy. But now I look back on it...I believe this journey was made for me! to make me stronger, harder, and not to be weak in any facet of my life...


Your truth...your journey...your blessing...your testimony
Life choices...

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Quiet secrets...

Your taste is what amazes me...
I yearn to have you inside of me...
Loving the effect your having on me right now...
As you caress the tip of my tongue to the deepest part of my throat..


It shakes me like a soda pop...it moves me like a euphoria explosion...like a orgasmic gush of pleasure running through me...
I cant explain how much I want you...inside of mind...inside my mouth...inside the inner sanctum..


Damn...I sure cant wait to touch you again...
Got to get....my glass of wine...


Or is it....what is your deepest secret?

Monday, March 10, 2014

Forgiveness.....Could you?

As I watch the new season of Mary Mary I am seriously impressed by Tina Campbell's strength to forgive her husband and do what god says...
And that is to love, cherish,  in the good and bad and so on...


Many of us commit to these marriages and as soon as money isn't right and hard situations come we are humans are ready to run. She chose to stay and fight for her marriage and that's commendable. I can speak from personal experience on this topic because it took a ton of soul searching and prayer for me to leave. I felt like I was being punished by god and many of our married friends at the time for choosing this new step. To this day I have people that wont do business with me cause of what I chose to do.


I am also proud that Tina Campbell chose to control how her situation before it came out cause many women don't get that... I sure didn't... the side chick posted a picture of them in bed together on facebook, taunted me with it and asked for money...


That's why I have so much respect for Tina Campbell....
I wish I could have been that strong...so determine to beat the odds and stay...


I will admit since I left my life has been a living hell...from bad relationships, major weight gain, deep depression, financial woes, and so much more!!!
I've always felt like my life was destined for failure because I took the punk way out.
But I'm so blessed that god is so forgiving and I am a better four years later.


So the question is....
If your husband, boyfriend, baby daddy, or fiance' came to tell you saying he cheated on you with a personal or family friend...Could you truly forgive him and grow stronger from it?


Honestly...Could you?

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Can you go without?








Monday confession....I have been abstinent for a year now and it feels very conflicting!
So the question is....
Could you truly go without?


Many people would not be honest in their feelings to put it out there and be transparent. How long can you go without an sexual encounter? I mean seriously can you go more than a year without? In a world that put being sexually open on a pedestal, could you truly go against the grain and resist temptation?



As I'm navigating through this new singlehood I'm learning one thing...Everyone needs some attention every once in a while. And that means different things to different people. Sex is only a emotional state of mind and can be control with other things to occupy your time.


Im just saying....

The new gloried side chick....hell nawl

I know I might ruffle some feathers with this but this is something I need to get off my check...
I can't get into these new reality and drama shows...
Scandal, being mary jane, basketball wives ( I mean whores) love and hip hop ( any franchise) ....WHAT THE F***


I don't get it....Honestly, what's the fixation with it!! Many say its the new form of entertainment...I say its a way for future side chicks to know what to do..


I was married for five years and I definitely felt the effects of a ( side chick) messing up my home and foundation. I was never able to recover my marriage and to this day I promise myself I would NEVER be the side chick and if I found out I was one I would run like hell....


Do as you will...watch what you want but let me pose this question for ya...


How would you feel if one of these chicks came and messed up your home? Would you condone these shows or just view it differently? Im just saying...

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Complaints and Reflections...

I was looking online on Tuesday night and all I've seen lately is people complaining about how sorry or messed up their relationships are.
Many people know this is the end of "cuffing season" so this is to be expected but yikes. Do you really know if your relationship was real or was a "cuffing season" arrangement?


Do you enjoy being single?


I am happy that I'm single but I don't like it!


Sometimes its good to allow one chapter to close, allow yourself to heal and move on. I am guilty of this too and I will accept responsibility for that! Don't hang on to someone or something that don't want you!


Take this day and evaluate if you are hanging on too hard..

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Expectations...

Sometimes we apply too much pressure on ourselves to be a perfect. Its becoming the new normal to seek something that we are not. Movies, overly photo shopped models, and so much more is creating this overrated world of the need to be perfect.
I myself have personally experienced the pressure of what people want me to be. I am a plus woman and I want to lose weight but the pressure of it all can sometimes push you to extreme measures. I had to learn that sometimes you cant move to the beat of anyone's drum. I know now that I am beautiful regardless and I hope you don't allow the world to shape how you feel.


Word to the wise...
Love yourself first, allow god to heal you from the inside out
Then and only then will you feel fulfilled....


Prayer...


Lord, I ask that anyone who reads this is blessed by your spirit and knows that you are GOD... and that we as humans have to learn that prayer changes things...
AMEN...

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Welcome....my first post...yeah me

Hello everyone...


Welcome to my blog spot...


I have so much to say and now I can type it out when I cant video it!


Thank you in advance for reading...


I have a lot of great things coming up and lots of people that im blessed to work with and call my friends...


Stay tuned and be blessed...
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