Life choices....

Life can sometimes give you a reason to snap and curse everyone out but what would that truly prove?
As we embark on new things and experiences...remember everyone that smile in your face doesn't mean they love and care for you.
Personally, I have have been dealing with a big lifestyle decision that I've needed to make for the past eight months and no one knows but me. Its very hard holding something in when you needs to talk it out and quit stressing.


Life choices are not easy but in many cases its meant for us as human beings to go through it so we can inspire someone else in the long run. Being a little older I can truly say that I offer some life experiences and I wish my struggle not on my worse enemy. But now I look back on it...I believe this journey was made for me! to make me stronger, harder, and not to be weak in any facet of my life...


Your truth...your journey...your blessing...your testimony
Life choices...

Quiet secrets...

Your taste is what amazes me...
I yearn to have you inside of me...
Loving the effect your having on me right now...
As you caress the tip of my tongue to the deepest part of my throat..


It shakes me like a soda pop...it moves me like a euphoria explosion...like a orgasmic gush of pleasure running through me...
I cant explain how much I want you...inside of mind...inside my mouth...inside the inner sanctum..


Damn...I sure cant wait to touch you again...
Got to get....my glass of wine...


Or is it....what is your deepest secret?

Forgiveness.....Could you?

As I watch the new season of Mary Mary I am seriously impressed by Tina Campbell's strength to forgive her husband and do what god says...
And that is to love, cherish,  in the good and bad and so on...


Many of us commit to these marriages and as soon as money isn't right and hard situations come we are humans are ready to run. She chose to stay and fight for her marriage and that's commendable. I can speak from personal experience on this topic because it took a ton of soul searching and prayer for me to leave. I felt like I was being punished by god and many of our married friends at the time for choosing this new step. To this day I have people that wont do business with me cause of what I chose to do.


I am also proud that Tina Campbell chose to control how her situation before it came out cause many women don't get that... I sure didn't... the side chick posted a picture of them in bed together on facebook, taunted me with it and asked for money...


That's why I have so much respect for Tina Campbell....
I wish I could have been that strong...so determine to beat the odds and stay...


I will admit since I left my life has been a living hell...from bad relationships, major weight gain, deep depression, financial woes, and so much more!!!
I've always felt like my life was destined for failure because I took the punk way out.
But I'm so blessed that god is so forgiving and I am a better four years later.


So the question is....
If your husband, boyfriend, baby daddy, or fiance' came to tell you saying he cheated on you with a personal or family friend...Could you truly forgive him and grow stronger from it?


Honestly...Could you?

Can you go without?

Monday confession....I have been abstinent for a year now and it feels very conflicting!

So the question is....

Could you truly go without?

Many people would not be honest in their feelings to put it out there and be transparent. How long can you go without an sexual encounter? I mean seriously can you go more than a year without? In a world that put being sexually open on a pedestal, could you truly go against the grain and resist temptation?



As I'm navigating through this new singlehood I'm learning one thing...Everyone needs some attention every once in a while. And that means different things to different people. Sex is only a emotional state of mind and can be control with other things to occupy your time.


Im just saying....

The new gloried side chick....hell nawl

I know I might ruffle some feathers with this but this is something I need to get off my check...
I can't get into these new reality and drama shows...
Scandal, being mary jane, basketball wives ( I mean whores) love and hip hop ( any franchise) ....WHAT THE F***


I don't get it....Honestly, what's the fixation with it!! Many say its the new form of entertainment...I say its a way for future side chicks to know what to do..


I was married for five years and I definitely felt the effects of a ( side chick) messing up my home and foundation. I was never able to recover my marriage and to this day I promise myself I would NEVER be the side chick and if I found out I was one I would run like hell....


Do as you will...watch what you want but let me pose this question for ya...


How would you feel if one of these chicks came and messed up your home? Would you condone these shows or just view it differently? Im just saying...

Complaints and Reflections...

I was looking online on Tuesday night and all I've seen lately is people complaining about how sorry or messed up their relationships are.
Many people know this is the end of "cuffing season" so this is to be expected but yikes. Do you really know if your relationship was real or was a "cuffing season" arrangement?


Do you enjoy being single?


I am happy that I'm single but I don't like it!


Sometimes its good to allow one chapter to close, allow yourself to heal and move on. I am guilty of this too and I will accept responsibility for that! Don't hang on to someone or something that don't want you!


Take this day and evaluate if you are hanging on too hard..

Expectations...

Sometimes we apply too much pressure on ourselves to be a perfect. Its becoming the new normal to seek something that we are not. Movies, overly photo shopped models, and so much more is creating this overrated world of the need to be perfect.
I myself have personally experienced the pressure of what people want me to be. I am a plus woman and I want to lose weight but the pressure of it all can sometimes push you to extreme measures. I had to learn that sometimes you cant move to the beat of anyone's drum. I know now that I am beautiful regardless and I hope you don't allow the world to shape how you feel.


Word to the wise...
Love yourself first, allow god to heal you from the inside out
Then and only then will you feel fulfilled....


Prayer...


Lord, I ask that anyone who reads this is blessed by your spirit and knows that you are GOD... and that we as humans have to learn that prayer changes things...
AMEN...

Welcome....my first post...yeah me

Hello everyone...


Welcome to my blog spot...


I have so much to say and now I can type it out when I cant video it!


Thank you in advance for reading...


I have a lot of great things coming up and lots of people that im blessed to work with and call my friends...


Stay tuned and be blessed...
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